my way of living

2007-02-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

i did update, really. its on my xanga site. and the link can be found at the left, just below the song link. for those who still cant see it, click here. join xanga! hah

till then, ...

2007-02-15T17:49:00.000+08:00

this blog will be here for you people, cos i know not all are willing to join xanga? hahah! xanga is good, rly. and yea, i do have a livejournal acc! at least, both are better than blogger :X
EVONNIE DIDN'T STOP COMMENTING/TAGGING.
i couldnt enter certain blogs.
namely; karapole, cher, CJJ, divinia, joG, etc.
all due to the " - " thingy at the link, for i dont know why? HAH
alright, help me & i'll reward you kaes! (:

BSB madness is back! lalala
i couldnt stop listening to their songs.
it reminds me of korea, ginseng chicken soup, unclejimmy, yolnje, justin, -4degree, lotteworld, nose-bleeding, thatbeach, mykid, kim lay yong & so much much moreee.
all-time-fav: what makes you different, the call, all i have to give, shape of my heart, get another boyfriend, the answer to our life, how did i fall in love with you, drowning etc.

jealousy kills. good or bad?

2007-02-12T15:45:00.000+08:00

alright, kinda satisfied with my xanga now. so maybe im gonna use xanga MORE often than before. hahahah! BOOO TO blogger ya!

anyway, these few days were really nuts, but it seems like most of the things are getting better. (congrats to them yea!) so i shall focus more on my future now. its still biomed. biomed. & biomed. hahaha! and im left with 2 more days to decide? ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF EH? HAH

THANKS cher****! (please say im nicer than vanessa when you see this) :X
so im thanking you here for the talk that lasted almost 1/12 of the day.
and ya, im gonna lend you COMB. HUMANS FYS as valentine's day present then! hahaha. im pretty sure it will be the MOST UNIQUE&USEFUL PRESENT ever. X) lalala

ought to catch some sleep now before i get even HIGHER. hahaha

51% SINGLE(:

2007-02-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

went to work after i accompanied grandma for her shopping today. was nicee though i didnt buy anything for myself. haha
met guowei to return thedebt. hahah! and i dont owe anyone money now, i suppose?
never did much of work today, cos the system was lagg and down. rahs.
saw loads of old friends at the studio.
right, and must they mention richie looks like me? oh well, i got no comment.
* still thinks im the better*******. hah!
sneak out during break to get cinda's phone. again, its W850i. sony ericsson rocks!

alright. dont really know what im typing already.tireddddd. i must say i enjoyed the dinner/supper at newton. its was awesomeeeeeeeee(:

thanks don. thanks don. once again, thanks so much.

2007-02-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

met up with karapole just now,

alright, was a short meet-up. hahah

thanks don. thanks don. thankss so much don(:

2007-02-06T18:39:00.000+08:00

i'll be there where you'll be.

2007-02-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

new plan, work shall start really soon.
you changes my mind. & so i'll just focus and drain all my energy just on work.
till the day, you dont be fickle-minded.
im just so silly, all for you again.

maybe, melvin is right. im easily influence by song. harlem's voice is pretty toooo

time to see dr loh again. in need of waterrrr. *ehem
nightss

its a chinese song.

2007-02-04T14:20:00.000+08:00

what am i doing. what am i thinking. what do i want. rahhss

alright. aunt has been constantly asking me to work these few days. maybe, its time. so fel or anyone who wants to go tanning, please tell me soon before i REALLY START WORKING. rahhs

theres no forever, so what matters may be the process.
i learn to cherish, before its really gone.
for someone who worth all these.

marcos hernandez's voice is prettttty.

letmeblogletmeblog. rahhhs

(alright, sorry people. im not in a very good state now. pardon me)

2007-02-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

hope you'll read it.

2007-02-03T15:47:00.000+08:00

our 12th month.
its the day i'll never stop counting.
it will never be forgotten,
thanks for leaving this wonderful memory.

2007-01-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

bye our dearest ah gong[280107],

R.I.P

2007-01-27T13:28:00.000+08:00

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

a great song for this weather,and the upcoming season. hahahaha!
its sweet&lovely, isnt it? (:

thefinallytwodays

2007-01-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

till the day we collide.

[edit] blogger is sososososs screwed up. i give up. guess there's better things for me to do eh. RAHS.

2007-01-23T02:26:00.000+08:00

thats the reason why im staying at home.
though i hate waiting, but this time, its an exceptional.
ep3. 0233!

it just reminds me of you.
tell me why issit, so much.

2007-01-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

im updating cos i finally went out after staying at home for the past few days! thanks to the dramaMAMA; for the date, for lending bike etc. (:

i love the beach,
the dramaMAMA! [:

next superstar? haaha
get her (self-claimed RAIN)oldies album now! LOL my fav pose?! HAH slipper lickin NOgood* was trying to act dao, but..

jo's fav pic! *she knows why EH.

im tired of living, indeed

me VS the lamppost?

its jo again! lalalamy butt is aching now! rahhs. this shows that i must really get my bike soon. (:

evonnie love thebeach! maybe east coast? maybe sentosa? hahahaha

22/01/07.

ermmmm you were in my thoughts.

2007-01-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

went out with jo just now.
to,
1. get my tag refund
2. her interview
3. collect my phone
4. shopping?
5. eat
6. catch up
7. tour around 1/2 of spore.

in the end, went to visit adel at her workplace.
walk past gx's workplace too, but i was being unfriendly, so i went home without saying HI. LOL
yess. im updating almost everyday. cos im jobless currently? HAH
anyhows, thanks cherbaby! * you know why im thanking you.

I'd play the fool, for you.

2007-01-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

finally did some research about the course im interested in. & it got me pretty exciteddd(:
rahhhs. i cant wait to get my result! hahaha!
its just the matter of time, so i would prefer to face it earlier?
heard the release of result would be 5th Feb? I CANT WAIT!

chatted with madadada last night, & i saw her today. i cant believe it too(:
she was hugging me so tight till i could hardly even breathe at the station. aww, thanks for missing me partner! X)
poor little thingy! i could tell that shes really tired!
alright! i missss your singing toooo, MADADADA(:

andand thanks wy for accompanying me today. hahahah(:
take good care of yourself eh!

make last night's dream come true, will you?

2007-01-17T12:43:00.000+08:00

HAH! i think i've got used to the working days.
waking up early, stand up till 10 hours a day, smelling JP's cotton pillow, andand the punching card period! i must be maddddd :D
oh well, but i didnt really get to rest these few days eh?
ALL THANKS TO THOSE THAT CALL ME (esp in the morning). rahhhhs

one of my fav. song these day,

& thanks CHERBABY, for chatting with me till midnight yea! hope you're NOT snoring in class now! X)
the chimologymaturemadness friend love the oldcrappychimologyawesome friend la!

vision of you.

2007-01-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

i fell in love with this song again! hahahaha

& due to the lousy system of blogger which didnt allow me to post pictures.. i had to post my entry on xanga!
http://www.xanga.com/stenloves

ONE OF US.

2007-01-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

my last day working for JP!
alright. i decided to quit.
no specific reason, but brenda allow me consider for a day before i give her my final answer.
oh well, im still quitting (:
had fun working with STOPTANGS' EHEM, kasper, today! *hope im a good mentor? lalala

yess. im attached since you say so. HAH

It was an itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polkadot bikini,
That she wore for the first time today,
An itsy teenie weenie yellow polkadot bikini..
(:

to deb:
HANHAN! contact me soon eh! i got all the time you want to eat stingray with you yea(:
meanwhile, cheer up yes? hope you're doing fine now..
xoxo<3

2007-01-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

last day working with ting! booooo.
anyway, treated STOPTANGS to fish&co after work. dinner was filling and tasty, and everything was AWESOME. we manage to finish everything eh! lalala

met up with gina, guowei, clement, weicheng, and elson after that.
actually was kinda forced to meet up with the JP's. rahhs. :X
anyhows, still didnt manage to catch any movie though we went around the town area. hahah!
so i went home earlier..
& happy birthday clement.

what if you were the love of my life.

2007-01-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

rahhs. company decided to transfer me to TAKA SC before my fair at CK Tangs ends.
meaning, i can no longer knock off at 0930(mon-sat) and 0830(sun).
no more chatting, no more smsing, no longer get to see that maninblack, not allow to buy sugarcane drink at staff price & etc. hahahaha
i'll definitely miss maninblack's smile and the on purpose "excuse me". ):

FUCK; i hate this word.
however, you got this word in my head the whole day, or even everytime when i thought of your sillyidiot thinking.
what makes you think that i've fell for you and im thinking that we're more than just friend?
PLEASE. if i can survive well enough without anyone up till now, with or without you.. live goes on. i would still want to be your friend, but nothing more than that. [:

i hate despofreak.
i would rather create another fairy tale.

sevenletters lovin*

2007-01-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

do drop-by if you wish..
im working at CK TANGS B1, currently.
its beside the escalator that lead you to the 1st level.
horrible attire. BUT, please dont laugh. ((:

had my dinner with lemon today.
thankyouthankyouthankyou, lemon.
and lets countdown! 2 more daysss! hahhaha

2007-01-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

the only sweeeet thing of my job is..
almost everyone call you " dear". alright, maybe my service is... ******* LOL! :X
those DEARS are lovely. really.
im serious.
and my newest name is DEARTANGS/TANGSDEAR. LOL
ting's name is STOPTANGS. hahahaha
alright. 13 days more to goooo!
and after that, i'll rather rot at home. (:
just hope they found someone to replace me at take square before i get in?

anyhows, i hate the rain tonight.
& maybe i finally realised why people gets emo on rainy day.
rest assured. im perfectly fineee. tralalala

2007-01-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

so i have to report work at 8.30 AM tmr, with the duper ugly attire. rahhs
black shoe? black/white shirt? black long pants? it seems like im attending some funeral la.
alright. i bought my 3rd packet of TIC TAC EXTRA STRONG MINT this week.
its really addictive(:
please take it before you come closer. HA HA HA

another model company approach me. LOL!
maybe i should really think of leaving JP and try something else?
oh well, i'll only settle everything after the 2 weeks of fair yea.

leann rimes; the right kind of wrong.
im so addicted to this song now. ((:

PS: friendster is so screwed up. dont enter the website if possible. YOU MIGHT BE VIEWING THE WRONG PERSON'S PROFILE WITHOUT REALISING AYE.

2007-01-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

just wanna wish someone..
its the 1st birthday of the year of my friends,
that's why im posting it HERE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, SIANTZU!

much love! xoxo

2007-01-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

FAIR AT TAMPINES ENDED!
and tmr will be another OFF DAY! wooots
and the day after tmr, i'll be gg to town everyday.
NOT to shop, BUT work. rahhs
i shall be contented since huiting will be my working partner. hahah
furthermore.. shiau wei, deb, guo xiong, clement and lotss more is working there(town area) too!
meaning, i wont be that aloneee! lalalala
i'll pray for the BEST for the fair that will last around 2 weeks?
time passes slow when lemon&orange is not around..
anymore fruits that wish to join me? hahah

the way that i care secretly,

2007-01-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

this morning,

rahhs. the lack of sleep causes the eye-bag to enlarge? but you cant see it! hahahaha
madnessa vanessa ordered ice milo for my drink, and with the laksa.. IM NOT FEELING TOO GOOD NOW.
alright. shall get some sleep while waiting for cousin.

i think the best version of i'll be there for you is by THE MOFFATS[:
sweeeet and lovely. lalala

[edit] just wanna say that my xanga is active! ( for those who dont know)
alright, im gonan hit the sheets early tonight. no more midnight chat! hhaha
i cant wait to work with tingggg on thurs((:

2007-01-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

VANESSA OR K** H*** will be leaving in another 11 hours!
cher and i will be meeting 9 hours later to send her off.
i swear im not gg to airport to study this time round(:

had dinner with HANHAN(:
that girl really behave like a baby just now.
im the nanny this time round. X)
anyhows.. dinner was filling, coffee was sweeeet&creamy, east coast talk was AWESOME.

hilarious shot[:

1 more resolution: BE MORE AFFECTIONATE.

xoxo; x=hug, o=kiss (if you didnt know)

2007-01-06T12:11:00.000+08:00

will dreams ever come true?
i hope not, for now.
why on earth will i even dream of YOU. rahhs!
you're always my friend. a dear friend of mine. simple as that (:

alright. im just blogging for fun since i got plenty of time today.
so maybe i'll visit my prettygirlfriend cum sister, guoxiong! and maybe, caramel maker, deb later!

as for now, shall pay doctor a visit.
dont ask me what's wrong cos im just suffering from some unknown illness.
i'll stay aliveeee, dont worry(:

guainesss for you*

2007-01-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

see that cute little baby? hahah! its actually jasmine(my supervisor)'s daughter!
yet, i actually went to tell the mother of the child to report her to the information counter when i see her loitering. LOL!
not as naive as vanessa though! hahh! she actually wanted to bring the child home. madnesss!
anyhows,
thanks clement & weicheng for coming down just to say HI and have lunch together when they actually got to travel all the way down from woodlands to TM on their OFF-day.
thanks cher for having lunch with us when she actually came down just to take her notes from guowei.
thanks vanessa for always waiting for me and sharing the cripsy chicken!

anyway, bon voyage ssa! i know you gonna miss me! i'll miss you when i dont see a ghost in VEEKO! :D lalala

COUNTDOWN (1/1/07)

the secret between us.

2007-01-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

hahah! THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA BE AWESOME(:
offoffoffoffoff! lalalala
anyway, work is kinda tiring but niceeee. thanks! i enjoyed((:
with clement as bodyguard&part-time clown, black face not around and ssa giving me FREE massage; day was GREAT!

and bet you didnt see me for quite some time alr right; PICTURE!

my shit-collector and me[:

i dont like the hot and cold attitude of yours. hahaha
byeeee.

2007-01-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

THE 11th MONTH!
i dont wish for anything.
perhaps, by keeping me in your mind would be enough. really.
& counting..

2007-01-02T23:03:00.001+08:00

i'll make it short and sweet; RESOLUTION.

1. love myself.

2. give someone a chance; stop thinking about my old crush

3. try to commit into a serious relationship

4. be nicer to my family than friends

5. stop skipping meals

6. try not to have night-life

7. learn not to let go to the things i likeeee.

8. give someone a proper hug.

9. be decisive; never follow my feelings again.

10. forget about the past; MOVE ON for life goes on(:

2007-01-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

SO I JUST WANNA SAY..
I GOT A NEW PHONEEEEE(:
NO MORE K700i! and that hp no.
thanks for those sweeeet messages anyway! lalala

went over to meet deb then jason before countdown at their workplaces.
deb made the best caramel and give the warmest hug! whereas, jason is the most unfriendly saleman i ever met and give the coldest smile ever.
see the contrast? so deb, i still love you more la! (:
countdown was AWESOME! with the firework that was right infront of my eye and oldcrappy just right beside, what else could be better? HAHAH!
THANKS OLDCRAPPY! you know i will always MISS YOU la! (:

so got transferred to mustafa ytd! HILARIOUS. i swear i didnt laugh sooo much in my life before. thanks to those AH BU NA! hahahah.
good thing its only a day. BUT, i have alr got used to the natural BODYSMELL there! :S
went back to expo today! free meal, nearer, and when cher is around.. things are just so great!

alright..

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

it's still the same old brand new you. LOL!

2006-12-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

IM NOT WORKING AT EXPO ANYMORE.
its at tampines! metro.
saw so many many people today. *run away
anyway, its no longer with cher but with ssa!
let's pray that things will be smooth until i leave that place! (:
chermaine wee, i miss you la!
we can no longer laugh at the "molester" boooo!

countdown tmr! (:

2006-12-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE.
BUT NOT NOW..
LET'S WAIT TILL 2007! (:

so today is my first day of work for JP (officially).
exact place would be EXPO, HALL 5!
best of all is that.. im working with chermaine weeeeeee (:
AND, the trip to expo took me less than 1/2 an hour! lalala
hahahah! & i recommended buddy, huiting, jason and etc. to JP!
im waiting for the treat HUR! hahahah

alright.after all the f shit that happened.. i dont mind losing everything, including you.
things are always much better after christmas.
i cant wait to countdown.
i cant wait to announce the ****.
i cant wait to get my result.
i cant wait to see myangel!

2006-12-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

so went to find cher& ju at their workplace today. and saw cher's colleague, ming yi.
kinda happy for cher aye, for i dont know why. hahahaha
anyway, thefamily is meeting. i cant wait :D
i miss madada!

anyway, sorry buddy for the last min changes and stuff.
still my "weiyi" best ever buddy for now alright!
match sooooon (:
i feel bad still. love anyhows!

COS I MISS YOU FINALLY.
love is when you're myangel.

2006-12-26T03:38:00.000+08:00

I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
And if it's healthier to leave you bemay a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me

I'm finding my own words, my own little stage, my own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
A nice setting for heartache where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desireare friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles

2006-12-26T03:26:00.000+08:00

just bathe! hahahah and madness.
its like 3 plus now.
changs was right.
wash up, and "you'll be awake for another 30 mins!"
anyway, just had a 2 hrs + chat with ssa.
other than deb, cher, wy, poks,aym and etc. (normal chat wouldnt last longer than 10 mins.)
rahhs. awesome feeling telling someone all the SHITS.
and the SHIT-COLLECTOR was nice enough to "eh huh" though there isnt any solution to those stuff. anyhows, i enjoyed the chat. THANKS AH!(glad that i earn my heart-shape back!) lalala

so anyw, today wasnt as pleasant as i expected.
horrible people still exist. and i met one just now.
whatever it is, BOO!

2006-12-25T12:19:00.000+08:00

my ahlianwannabe friend? HAH
alright. i dont mind being another " ah ..." to go along la.
so anyway, deb should be on the plane now?
the madness friend, me, hope you like the 3am message! lalala
and hope this could make up for my last minute ps the other day.
love.

i will be your anything.

2006-12-25T02:28:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

may santa grant all wishes.
peace and love.

2006-12-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

I'M FINE. SUPER DUPER OKAY.
stop asking.

omg. stephanie is sweeeeeeet. more than any candy la.
i will love you if you can do something better than THIS!

thats the envelope. its UNCLEAR. (not revealing my address anway) hah

thats the content. NICE EH? SAY "YES, DUPERRR"

look at THE NAME. lala

and it ends off with a PAINTED GOLDHEART

thanks steph! im posting this! hahah
see you people (F4/3) on the 28th!
love you steph. <3

i felt like the same way last year.

2006-12-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

PICTURES! hahahahah

i love the view! (:

thats before i change! HAHAHA

DEB'S FAVOURITE ACTION!

is she that heavy? lol

caught cha!

one in a million! (:

I LOVE MY NANNY(:
HAHAHAH!
yay! i want pattaya! lalala
love lotsssssssss [:

2006-12-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

start & end it WELL.

thanks for all the advance christmas presents!
its chocolate.
chocolates.
and MORE chocolateS.
shall be contented cos its not ORDINARY chocolates?
namely> CHOCS, GODIVA, SINS etc.
rahhs. im not eating it.
LETS SHARE cos i dont really love chocolates? :X
anyhows, its too nice to even touch it? hahahaha
thanks for no more chocolate? (:
lalala [:

2006-12-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

ecstatic? BUT, i would prefer to use rahhhhhhhs to describe whatever feelings now.
****! i couldnt express how much i hate a a cat, BLACK one esp.
encountered one just now, and **** things happened.
WTH. i wish i could kill all the cats, maybe only ALL BLACT CATS in the world. :X
cute ones shall be spared. LOL

finally went out today,

sorry for not paying attention. (:

ET?! should be E.D laaaahh! LOL

taken by EST. lalalala

shall post MORE tmr. HAH

just a smile and the rain is gone?

maybe you would want to say goodbye to me again, just like the past.

2006-12-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

private emotions.

its a song.

its a message.

its whatever you want it to be.

im afraid of that day.
the day that i have never else to tell you.

2006-12-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

CLICK HERE

click it if you listen to chinese song.
well, its awesome to have this song stuck in your head during this rainy season.
i like the feeling, for i dont know why. hahah!
ohh, the meaning of the lyrics is supppper ***** (:

anyway, the chat with changs ytd was HAHAHA!
im always so frank.
shouldnt things be like this?
thats how we begin to trust each other right. LOL!
i was just being nice ytd, as A FRIEND. hahahaha

and to thefriend, no harm staying single!
it rocks actually. lalala
cheers.

[EDIT]

CLICK

rahhs. another freaking emo song? LOL
but who cares, i kinda like it.
thanks to the one who sent me this.
so thankyou, you droolingbabyass?

2006-12-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

from charlene's blog,

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are: I love you, Sorry, and Help me.

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two-fold?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But, don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself, if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.

cos i believe in fate.

& i love you, bestfriend! lalala

2006-12-17T12:50:00.000+08:00

FOR MY DEAT TUITION PEEPS,
I GUESS WE ALL MISSES EACH OTHER ALOT.
SO VAL, GX AND MYSELF IS WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO PLAN SOMETHING.
ANY SUGGESTIONS? HAHAHAHA
TAG OR MSG ME ALRIGHT.
OH! AND TELL ME WHEN YOU GUYS ARE AVAILABLE.
THANKSS! AND HOPE IT WILL WORKS THIS TIME ROUND. x)
LOVE.

ALRIGHT. (THIS IS FOR YOU SEAN) ,

5 GENERAL FACTS ABOUT SEANY.

1. EX- BARTENDER
2. ONE YEAR OLDER THAN ME
3. A LESBIAN?! (RIGHT, DUDE?)
4. LOVES SKATING
5. SPEED OF REPLYING IS DUPER FAST.

a token of appreciation for the past 2 days? HAH

2006-12-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

if you manage to affect my mood somehow or another.
you know you stand a place somewhere in my heart.
anyhows, if you're trying to be mean. lets bid goodbye.
im tired of this. and im even sicked of things being repeated.

anyway, thanks. i seems to enjoy the night today for i dont know why.
perhaps, i like to bully people even without realising. hah
thanks for what you've done to make me feel better.

changs, thanks for all those that you've sent. i still prefer those below :D

lovely songs,

love me not.

2006-12-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

alright! im finally back home!
went to stayover at aym's place for the past few days since its SO MUCH NEARER to my workplace.
anyhows, NO MORE AURIC. hahahaha
AND I SWEAR I'll not take any course that its related to accounts.
BUT i completed those MILLION MILLION MILLION OF FIGURES BEFORE I LEFT THE PLACE. ((:
yay! RESTRESTREST. and all the DATES and stuff.
OH! AND IM GETTING MY NEW PHONE SOON! lalala.
NO MORE MISS-ED CALL and UN-REPLY MSGES(:

& I HOPE I CAN MEET LOVELYFELASS AND DEARESTMOLEY TMR! hahahah

shall end off with this song.

it has been my favourite song since SEC 1? HAHAH
and i wont stop listening to it, i promise (:
lyrics ; its the way you make me feel

SING IT TO ME & I'll LOVE YOU!

tell me how can I walk away,
I don't care what they say,
I'm loving you anyway,
It's the way you make me feel

2006-12-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7vAcLY0v8s ; crazy for this girl (:
this song keep me going when the work is like endless in the office.
thats why its a loveeeee to this song!
ohh! tmr willl be the last day of work at AURIC! i cant waittt(:
though the company wants me to stay longer, but i guess im not gg to! spare me! HAH!
charles will be taking over my place, so all the best to him. hahaha

went to IMM after work and did something "hideous" OMG.
anyhows, im still contented for who i saw. * GRINS
yes. step by step, no rush anyway!
friend, im back (:

you'rethecandle,love'stheflame&imthelighter.

2006-12-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

318. '

horrible dreams last night.
but im told, it will always happen the opposite in reality?
so i'll prayyyy that the dream will not come true. HAH

alright. event will be at neptune tmr!
yea, its really the last. i'm so gonna miss that place.
hahaha! & will be seeing cinda and muz tmr, i cant wait! (:

oh! and was chatting with CHERBABY just now.
this girl made me breathless. cos the talk is rushing&endless .
gosh! we're so alike in thinking. LOL! *the certified chimology master.
yea, im looking forward to those PLANNINGS. and the EC DATE!
madness! say cheers to the 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 YEARS of AWESOME FRIENDSHIP(:

random thoughts,
its super annoying to find something to talk about.
why must i be the one? im sick of it. boo laaahh!
lets not talk :X

alright. time for billygoat!

dont have a say a word, cos deep inside we already know.
beautiful goodbye.

2006-12-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

omfg. my feet hurts like ****!
& lalala! im not working on weekend.
that means i can sleeep for all i want! (:
pleaseeee, dont call me!
i cant believe that i can have 37 missed calls! :X
shall dont reveal out *ehem's name! being nice, for once?
forgive me, cos im working! (:

so i love beloved grandma supppper duppper much alright.
forever waiting for me! and always cut the fruits for me even though i said i dont want right from the beginning. omg! tell me, who else can i compare the love she ever shown.

oh, and i hope that those invoices that i did today will be up to standard?
yay! i completed that pile of thingy before 4.30!
i pray hard that, monday will be another easy day.
and wanna thank the niceindianlady. i cant live without her in the office la.

& thank aym for offering to let me stay-over for ONE WEEK!
but, i guess i have to reject it.
cos giving beloved grandma a kiss is A MUST! (:

so im missing those days that we jump on the bed and sing like nobody's business.
buying those marble bottle drinks as though they are free.
watching the video together as if there's no ending..

nothing left to lose; mat kearney (:

2006-12-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

post before i lie flat on my bedddd..

so job was tiring. rahhs.
butbutbut. with the help of those friendly people out there, im doing FINE?! hahha
and i pray that jw will come on next mon to rescue me!
so tmr will be me and the niceindianlady. LOL!
pray for meeeeee! (:

& shes just so worth mentioning la!
thanks hanhan for accompanying me,
for dinner and ermm..waited for me countless of time to make my horrible socks!
shes like a great nanny today!
pulling my pants ( ^5 to skull mini boxer) & carried the Zbag for me.
goodness. i thank god for her(:
other than the DISNEY song that she sang NON-stop, i felt nice to have her around yea.
cos for the first time, i felt im really well taken care of? hahaha!
so i think you deserve something..
yea, i promise i'll try to keep my mp4 when you're talking..
oh, and not bored with you with those "friend of mine". getting sicked of it anyway.
i'll not say it, unless you want to hear aye?
conclusion, i'll try to give you all the attention la!
satisfied? HAH
& i really got the urge to rush down to town just to be han's guinea pig tmr after work!
oh well, lets see..

the one in the million picture that i found. hahaha

with or without you. still, we've drifted.

angelovin ' .

2006-12-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

so after today, you cant contact me during office's hour!
work starts tmr, 830-548! (weekdays only) and it will last for a week?

90's meeting is cancelled! booooooo
should i be disappointed? yes, i should):

oh,
and to deb, no i still prefer to call you han han! LOL
thanks for being so nice. hahahaha
the fact that you are so nice to everyone.. so i shouldnt be touched right?
( must be saying im mean again) [:
yea, you're one of those "outside" friend that is RARE..
unlike val and sw, dont think they rmb us alr la! :X
still, thanks for everything.
PS: thanks to your lousy phone, i cant contact you either! hahaha
oh well, perhaps we can meet after work!
and my blog is somewhere we could communicate! (:
call me soon alright, lovelydear friend!

& thanks aym for those advices and encouragement! (:

angels lullaby is love.

2006-12-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

I wonder where you are
I wonder what your thinking about tonight, I wonder
Maybe you're alone
Maybe youve been crying just like me, I wonder
I dont know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much

Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
Its been a rainy afternoon
Now Im staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

I told you every day
I told you every night in every way, I love you
Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my lifes a mess
Cause I couldnt love you any less

CHANGES. i cant be bothered anymore.

2006-12-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

back from alj. rahhs
went to so many places today. rahhs
ate so much today, not really. rahhs
did so many things today. rahhs
made so many phone calls today. rahhs
saw so many familiar faces today. HAH

alright. im really exhausted.
was chatting with deb just now. madnesssss!
she got me shouting like * ehem hahahah
alright. cant escape from her now! and who knows, the phone in my room might ring at 2am?LOL :X okay okay. i wont mind though. hahaha
so we were talking about expectations and stuff. hilarious hilarious!
im too tired to think of anyone now.
perhaps im still waiting, like always.
or maybe, i didnt realised i've alr found that someone.
oh well.. should i listen to deb's theory? LOL!

90's meeting on thurs. i wonder how will it be like..
am i looking forward? yes, i should (:

oh! being a really nice person. here's something for you!
CHEER UP, thegirlfriend.
dont be sadddddd. for i swear this 5 WORDS TO YOU, i'll be there for you(:
alright. im waiting for our drinking date eh. hahahaha

Its not right
Its not fair
Its in you baby cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life

2006-12-04T02:44:00.000+08:00

thanks CJJ and nnette. im feeling lalalala now. LOL!

and dont ask me why the way i reply changes. thanks to my dear friend..

1. yea

2. hahaahahah

3. LOL

4. dont know

5. lazy

interesting right? MY HEAD! hahaha :D

alright. gonna hit the sheets soon. theres check-up tmr! omg. there shouldnt be thing im terrified of eh? hahaha.

2006-12-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

Nothing to win
And nothing left to lose.

yet those that treated you the best are usually those you treated awfully.
is that the reason to make them the best?
no doubt. im feeling guilty.

alright. 1130mangoikhereicome :D

PS : CALL MY ROOM.

2006-12-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

thanks dan. for coming over
thanks dan for uploading more than 500 songs in my com.
thanks dan. for gg PP with me
thanks dan for all the crappy but entertaining jokes
i dont mind meeting the 2nd dan, less violent of course!

cos now i can only regard you as my friend.
wanting to tell you that i miss your voice, your smile and the way you look at me.
oh how silly am i. rahhs

2006-12-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

my new addiction,

With Or Without you by U2 & Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

the tenth months. i've never stop counting..

2006-12-01T20:06:00.000+08:00

last night was ****. the fact that i didnt know how/whr/when i fell asleep. good thing is im on my bed this morning. hah

once again, thanks for all the reminders yea.
who really care about everything now?
cos the best thing is that i dont have to care about all your shitty stuff anymore.
why should i even bother planning or thinking so much.
yea, i'll get something to entertain myself very soon.
i forgot that i have already got all the freedom i want. you longer have the rights yes.
lets see how superficial can things get.
see you NO MORE (:

alright. shall go out and get some peace!

"dashi dela"

2006-12-01T15:58:00.000+08:00

THE ORIGINAL,

THE NEWER VERSION,

THE "HILARIOUS" VERSIONS,

& I wonder, are you thinking of me cos I'm thinking of you..

2006-12-01T01:37:00.000+08:00

seems like nothing that happened pleases me in anyway.

[edit] i shall be nice to YOU anymore. **** OFF!

and its really sad to know the dearest ones are those that doesnt trust or understand you.

yes, i very much wants to embrace you now. and again, i felt like running back to you.

2006-11-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

[ http://218.30.20.121:5699/taozh/soul/a04.wma ]

CJJ wants this to be here. so enjoy yea? (:

im not thinking about it alr, you'll have my blessing.

i'll make you love me more tomorrow.

2006-11-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

credits to hoiwei. im impressed, someone could actually hear this song while struggling with the duper noisy surrounding of the recording. thanks so muchhhhh for helping anyway(:

and meanwhile, another emo oldies i've just added to my mp4.

Now&Forever by Richard Marx

2006-11-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

~~DECEPTION~~
is ****

alright. decided to use both xanga and blogger. dont ask me why for i have explained it for more than a million times today.

stayed home for today. rahhs.
almost slept for the whole day.
cos the weather is really awesome.

i promise my phone is in good condition cos im using themotorola today.
everyone elses get through except for fel. this is so weird.
seriously, cant blame me for not believing.
anyhows, its too late to say anything now.
i just felt i wasted one day of my life. hah
didnt really spend time with grandma today, cos shes like forever sleeping.

so am i like suffering from insomnia nowadays?
just cant seems to sleep. this is bad):
and cousin is forever there to accompany me throughout the night. something i should be glad about..

still, i hate the feeling of being cheated. ****
i promise not to quarrel with anyone esp SOME.
however, i feel that i have the rights to be pissed. but im not showing it out.
rahhs. how i wish i can control my emotions and stuff well.
everything is so out of hand.
perhaps, im bothered by too many things now. hope its not accumulating.
alright. i'll not think about it now. let it be!!
shall head off to drink. perhaps this could be a better choice.

2006-11-25T02:58:00.000+08:00

~~byeeeeeee(:~~

2006-11-24T13:25:00.000+08:00

D-side's Invisible.

somehow, i prefer this version of invisible. but their dance was really hilarious! hahaha

wish you could touch me with the colours of your life

2006-11-23T13:45:00.000+08:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

i dont why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We"ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
"Cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

If You're Not The One Lyrics by Daniel Bedingfield

this song didnt lie. it tells everything.

2006-11-23T13:44:00.000+08:00

congrats to richie ass for getting into EXPRESS. (;

*edit
& went PP with the bro to get present for him as reward. i can be nice! LOL
CJJ tag along.. and saw thegirlfriend there! hahah.
was accused being a spy. c'mon, im not that bored. .
anyway, bought alcohol and lotsa food.
hahah! we're turning PIG. *oinks

2006-11-19T10:34:00.000+08:00

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around
And he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care
What your heart is for
I don't know him anymore

There's nothin' where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothings right I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don't care I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things that I can't touch
I'm torn

There's nothin' he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right
I'm torn

torn by Natalie Imbruglia

2006-11-19T10:15:00.000+08:00

FIRST THING, SORRY PEOPLE!
theres something wrong with my phone.
sososo, .................. ( all the consequences)
esp to those lovely people out there, im alright, NOT DEAD:X (THANKS FOR THE CONCERN)
call my room number; and you can hear my voice! (:

i bet everyone enjoyed these few days. stay-over could be ((:
one advantage> breakfast is on my table before i ON the com.
thanks sweetcandyS. i didnt ill-treat you all right? LOL

alright, hope you're doing well thefriend!
andandand bet you like those balloonS!
it took me one whole morning to get everything done aye.
hopefully, i didnt cause any air pollution:X
may everything goes well for the opt. today see you sooon! (:

2006-11-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

apology to you.

sorry thegirlfriend.
for hurting your feelings and stuff.
perhaps our conversation has always been full of sarcasms, so hurt you without even realising it.
oh well. you will forgive me right? hahaha.
as you can see, im really sincere (:
lets hangout soon, ~~sister~~guoxiong, not forgetting the rest of course!

much love.

[ALL WAS A LIE]

2006-11-16T13:03:00.000+08:00

end of Amaths!

just let me have alittle break.
& out of the so many people that has offered their help, i wanna thank jian ann!
nonono. she didnt teach me any amath stuff.
however, this buddy of mine was there when im so discourage.
that ******* emo night that i wanted to give up on amaths.
anyway, so had a bball match at blk108 ytd.
to be exact, it was not really a match? shouldnt go into details about it :D
however, the talk was endless.
both emo-chimology freak, what can you expect?
everything about bball was awesome until i felt the pain.
rahhs. cant even write properly during the exam.
felt so much better after mai-darling's massage. hahaHA (:
best of all, she understand my crappyjokes.

shirley's recommendation; wind beneath my wings(:

no longer will be the one.

2006-11-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

THANKS LOVELY AWESOME PEOPLE FOR FINDING THIS..

& here the wonderful song goes,

I could start dreamin' but it never ends
As long as you're gone we may as well pretend
I've been dreamin'
Straight from the heart

You say it's easy but who's to say
That we'd be able to keep it this way
But it's easier
Straight from the heart

Give it to me straight from the heart
Tell me we can make another start
You know I'll never go
As long as I know
It's comin' straight from the heart

I'll see you on the street some other time
And all our words would just fall out of line
I was dreamin'
Straight from the heart

Give it to me straight from the heart
Tell me we can make another start
You know I'll never go
As long as I know
It's coming straight from the heart

Give it to me straight from the heart
Tell me we can make another start
You know I'll never go
As long as I know
It's coming straight from the heart

CLICK HERE ; STRAIGHT FROM THE HEART BY BRYAN ADAMS (:

I <3 this song!

WOOTS! aym is coming!

HAWHAW < is this familiar? LOL!

2006-11-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

FOR LOVELY PEOPLE.

8 more days and YOU ALL can ***.
IM NOT ***GING EITHER.
for now, focus.
thats the least i can do for you all.
regret having me as your friend? :D
thats the agreement, CLEARLY STATED.
you better keep to it(:
& sorry that i accidentally deleted some of the ***s.
alright. i deleted on purpose:X
some things are meant to be secrets. hahaha

alright. time's up.

cos it will never come from somewhere deeper than this.

2006-11-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

left with 10 minutes. so shall blog alittle!
went bedok to meet up with someone that i didnt chat with for 8456475615 million billions of seconds. hahah
thanks friend for those encouraging words and the companion.
was really great when you have someone to take bus with, all the way to alj.
at least, it keep me awake, as always. (:
friend was kind enough to stay on, until the collection of the book.
however, i must declare that i really didnt know about it until that call.
was freaky though, to have someone hiding somewhere' and looking at you.
anyhows, thanks a bunch! ((:

& the afternoon was AWESOME.
i love the pouring rain, even though its really childish to play under the rain.
who cares? i love it. hahaha
not forgetting my new addiction, prison break.
its a love to this show.

alright. time's up.

'Open up the door just a little more, baby let me in.

2006-11-11T02:13:00.000+08:00

i dont know how much longer can i contain this stupid idiotic feeling?
it suck badly. i swear.
its never a lie. if it is, its a white one.
" you made my tears fall down, it was you, only you. "
emo feeling aint getting any better.
perhaps a hug from you can RE-assure me now.
i know im over-dependent on you.
so please, dont do things that will make me upset.
take me away if you're leaving.
i have never want the day to come.
to someone that stands somewhere deep down.

& not to forget what that happened 6 years ago.
its a secret.

2006-11-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

WHILE WAITING FOR HAN HAN,

guess who?
close-up one.. MAKE A GUESS! hah
clockwise direction(deb, sw, val, est)
some stupid shot. LOL
deb's favourite action.
val is still adorable!
sw & val. lovely people!
me & val(;
smilesmile

DATED : 24/11/06

madness! nothing but love with them around.

PS: copy from here okay. hahahaha (:

2006-11-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

a short one.

horrible one week has past.
now i pray for best for all?

had AWESOME dinner with old crappy one.
seems like im getting "old" too.
cos OC&I actually think alike?
yea, EC's talk did made tonight, a wonderful tonight.
at least was a fruitful one?
now that we understand each other better.
thanks. & the little alcohol did make everything better too.
good things will never last, but hopefully i did make you feel i can always be there, as always.
PS: i'll be looking forward for the first ever photograph (:

for now, TADDA! (:

my beloved(:

oh well. i look forward to thurs.
not becos its the 2nd last paper. but for the returns of the 3s!

i cant hate you anymore. or maybe i no longer love you. i promise not to make the love as a habit.

AND HAN HAN, you're in my thoughts again. LOL!

dont ***** me if you see this (:

10 minutes is up! hahaha

2006-10-15T18:01:00.000+08:00

tuition will never be bored with huiyi around.
cool! cos morning call is provided(:
for once, i felt i will not be late.

AND had a talk with aym just now.
was really a walking up call.
right, im too dependent.
yes, im afraid of the lonely feeling. i got it too much.
and i tense to rely on certain people without realising.
i have never want to admit, and even tried denying.
for now, i felt i shouldnt.

yes, all you people know that i got really a dramatic life.
too dramatic that i myself find it hard to believe it too.
yes, i can only accept it. but im not, for the past few months or even years..
i have always long to own something. and that made me into a really selfish person.
someone i find its scary too? i really hate that.
theres little thing i can do.
i tried in many ways to think of the bright side.
but theres always somewhere that im feeling empty. i find it really hard to fill the emptiness.
perhaps that was why i ended finding myself doing silly little things.
and always leading myself to the emotional side of me.
its hard to explain, but i really wonder why do people even envy my life?
i hate it hell lot.
sorry that i have always misused it.
alright. i will try to handle those stupid feeling well too.
i will just actually have this tendency to easily feel for something.
something really beyond my control.
as for now, i really want to keep everything aside first.
give me time to find what i really need or want alright.
its really a struggle.
to 7-letters-name, you reallyreally need to give me more time.
thanks aym, that talk knock me up!
iwillnotbethatemotionalcreature.

and to the dearest friend i even knew, i hope i didnt scare you and stuff.
that was words of the inner me. and i didnt know why i tell you all that.
perhaps midnight talk could be just words of secrets?
anyhows, thanks for things you did for me.
i hope everything will be just fine. you'll always be my dearest friend.

thanks CJJ for sending me this song.
gotta tell me, samantha mumba.
though i have this song in my com long ago, but thanks again.
its really nice.

get away & i'll focus.

2006-10-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

, NOT YOU I GUESS?

i didnt know why i felt tense up just now.
a stupid ***l could made me feel that way.
something's wrong with me.
andand THIS ISNT GOOD.
i dont like this feeling.
its something which seems so empty but yet making me excited?
alright, im contradicting myself.
but thats the fact that i cant deny.
hopefully, it will just...(leave it to fate)
all thanks to you, 7 letters.

i still love M&S's lavender perfume. nicenice(:
lovely just gave me a million reason to love too!
EXCLUDING THE ICE-BERG FEELING, today seems to be nice, as always. hah

trying not to be insatiable.

2006-10-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

1. yet, i feel like im saying goodbye to you again.
2. my love last longer than i've realised, ask my journal for evidence.
3. im still deciding if i should go for tmr's event, till 1 am? rahs
4. i cant wait to see cheryl(my so-ever-cute tutor)
5.i got someone to please me for the the next 2 days.
6. one meal per day, and i survived!
7. you're missed! the pillowtofuteddybear(: lovesss

alright. shall stop here for now.

fallen for?

2006-10-08T15:11:00.000+08:00

i still got some spare time to blog before i head to the office & raffles town club.
so here i am. hahh

look out of the window now!
dont you realised something?
the haze is getting better?
finally?!
so now, i shall pray for the RAIN(:

erm, had chicken rice for brunch just now.
thanks dym, save all my troubles to Q and stuff. thanks for the treat too.
and i cant believe that i took more than 1/2 hour to finish. yes, perhaps i just cant multi-task.
im not thinking it anymore. i swear im trying hard.

alright. having loads of thoughts in mind, but just dont know what to blog.
thats SAD huh?

****, let's just not get any closer.
****, lets just be JUST FRIENDS.
i'm still leaving all the unsaid words, unspoken.

rahhhhs.

2006-10-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

UPDATING...

I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

don't be my regrets, don't be my mistake.

cause right from the start, i've already chosen the wrong one.

2006-09-30T02:00:00.000+08:00

THANKS huh, charlene. for the tag. LOL

Favourite colour: GREEN.

Favourite food: SCALLOP PORRIDGE

Favourite movie: ALL EMO. ROMANCE SHOWS

Favourite sport: BALL games?

Favourite day of the week: that depend.

Favourite ice-cream: nothing in particular.

Favourite TV shows: upcoming goong for NOW.

Current mood: im forever rahh-ing.

Current taste: taste it and you'll know :X

Current clothes: green tee and shorts. LOL

Current desktop: ACER

Current toenail colour: -

Current time: 1.50am

Current annoyance:you're not online!

Current thoughts: loads of thought in mind la.

First best friend: one of my K2 partner.

First crush: mike.

First movie: forgotten.

First lie: its a white lie!

First music: could be ABC song?

Last cigarette: dont feel like mentioning.

Last drink: ice water.

Last car ride: BUS 10

Last crush: still stuck with that one.

Last phone call: 8.13pm with deb.

Last CD played: hillsong.

Have you ever dated one of your best friends: im all the while single?

Have you ever broken the law: LOADS. not to be mentioned. heh

Have you ever been arrested: i manage to escape?

Have you ever skinny dipped: yes, in a hotel's pool.

Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: who could be that lucky one? LOL

Have you ever loved and lost somebody: yes, my regrets):

another one.

single,taken or crushing? single.

are you happy with your life now? trying to be..

when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him/her fast? who knows?

have you ever had your heart broken? YES. OUCH*

would you take someone back if she cheats on you? that depends.

have you ever talked about marriage with another before? yes, not serious one.

do you want children? yes?

how many? see how pain it is first. if not adopt?

would you ever consider adoption? mentioned above.

if someone likes you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings? give me an awesome HUG.

do you enjoy getting into relationship? i dont know?

what is the furtherest thing you and your ex did? CLEAN RECORD.

do you believe in love at first sight? yes, i do.

do you believe you can change someone? we'll see. LOL

do you give in easily when you are fighting? most probably.

do you have feelings for someone right now? yes, i think?

have you ever wish that you could have someone but you messed it up? not at the moment.

have you ever broken a heart? hopefully NOT.

if one day your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with,what will you do? that depends how deeply i love that person?

are you missing someone now? yes, as always.

Now,you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blogs to let them know.

I SHALL NOT TAG ANYONE. DO IT IF YOU WANT? HAHAHA

charlene tang, be glad i've used 23mins of my time doing these for you. rahs.

hahahahah. LONG ENOUGH I HOPE?

2006-09-30T01:39:00.000+08:00

i was told that i should make my last post a long one.
alright. but i really got nothing much to blog about.

1. grandmum is back! (:

2. my result suck! ):

3. i love christian bautista's voice. pretty! (:

4. im still not motivated. wth):

5. i got my burberry perfume! (:

6. coldwar with mum still on? -

7. theres some money in my acc now. not more than $100 though(:

8. last day of using com. ):

9. i'll be able to PON school officially wef from next week (:

10. i love my darling lovely pillow teddybear. LOL (:

thanks for all the effort people. I SHALL SHOW MY APPRECIATION BY ACTIONS!
I MUST! (:

2006-09-30T00:11:00.000+08:00

this could be my last time using the com. till O's end aye.
and perhaps i'll not update for a very long time.
i know i broke the promise. forgive me then.

this may not be the first time im blogging about you.
but anyhows, this is just for you.
as i said, i felt that everything was like a dream. the talk and everything.
something i definitely enjoy alot. really.
you may not let me see the other side of you.
but one day, if you're willing, i will be able to accept for who you are.
im really grateful, really really thankful to have you as my friend.
i may not be the best person you can confide to. and may not be the best person who can cheer you up. but if you allow me to, i'll try my best ya.
if you ever feel like a trash, i'll be your bin.
i just hope that this friendship shall always maintain as it is.
i wonder why must we purposely not to get close becos of the past experiences.
i believe that miracles do happen. i'll be willing to be that miracle even though we thought that everything is impossible.
andandand, not only church friend could be there, tuition friends too alright!
thanks for being that special someone!
im really bad in expressing myself, but hope you know i really appreciate everything alright.
and i also tried my best not to diappoint you.
forever might not exist. so lets just make everything wonderful for now.
your friend, me! wish/pray/hope that you'll always be that bubbly someone.
no matter what happen, remember my existence alright! hahaha
hope you like that small little surprise! lovelove(:

2006-09-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

busing alone is nothing already. cos i got so used to it.
but busing with certain people can make the whole journey awesome.
guess i really enjoyed madada's company. im always teasing her. always sharing with her choc and sweets. always asking her to take picture with me when i feel like it.
alright, she's one of the few i enjoyed taking bus with la.
i cant wait to make fun of her again! HAHAHA
she can be so lovable at times aye.

i find myself doing silly things for certain people nowadays.
oh well, do i really enjoy everything or is everything worthwhile?
IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE.
happy is the word.

and, with or without me. hope mummy enjoyed her birthday today.

But anyway,
It's nothing so simple,
Nothing so silly,
Nothing so mundane.

2006-09-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rkaceAlvIv4
anyone knows the title of that song? TELL ME!

' I'll give you wings when you're falling, I'll lift you up when you're down. Taking you high,touching the sky. I'll make you fly. '
-edited version

2006-09-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

i never thought that the effect could be so affecting.

grandma is still at the hospital. WITH NO FOOD PROVIDED. WTH):
my heart hurts. really really hurts when i saw that bruise which she got from that fall.
had soya bean drink just now. and it just reminded me of her again. rahs
i dread to go home now. will you be understand the feeling of emptiness and loneliness even at home?
i cant give the daily kiss. i cant touch her white silky hair. i cant sayang her.
im so lost without her.
I DONT KNOW WHY TOO!
perhaps, no one will love me as much as she did.

thanks ssa for coming online & declaring the LOVE so widely.
thanks little ass for those sweeeet smses.
thanks fel for being mad with me.
thanks auntie for that call.
thanks jess for buying supper.
thanks to you for being my shelter & the so-warming HUG.

COME BACK SOOOON PLEASE BELOVED!

*yet, im thinking of someone elses when im with you.

2006-09-22T05:22:00.000+08:00

FUCK.
my so-ever first time using uncivilized word in my entry.
before i can even decide how i want to spend today.
its kinda spoilt.
perhaps, it will be another bad friday for me.
cos it has already began so wrongly.

i felt helpless. useless!
i hated myself for not doing anything when i see beloved suffering in pain.
something deep in, hurts even more.

so many things beyond my control.
so many things that can be avoided.

tellmewhatcanbedonenow?

2006-09-21T16:00:00.000+08:00

alright. ONLY 1 zi-lian picture okay.
and thank you people ( namely little mouse, zhulingfu, old-crapper)
i got 3 NON-LIVING tortoise at home now!
anyway, i have named them:X
please just say that i love them so dearly and made them sounded good okay!
and not forgetting my lovely birthday card that i lovelove so much.
alright. you just wait to get something nice from me la!

i think i've finally know the reason for my STM.
i'll only tell everyone when i've proven it RIGHT aye.

i promise i will not waste tomorrow.
meaning. i want or hope it turn out well! (:
NO MORE BAD FRIDAY.

* What hurts the most?
i've given up hope on it.

2006-09-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS BOYBOY!

i promise to visit you after my O's alright!
thanks for the cake anyway(:

2006-09-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

VIDEO , LYRICS

beautiful lyrics, lovely singing.
i simply LOVE this song.

2006-09-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

tuition with the noisy but lovable one on monday is just purely awesome.
i wouldnt mind giving up my jacket even though the air-con can be like ice-berg.
i wouldnt mind not chasing after the bus155.
i wouldnt mind searching the whole place just for the kisses.
i wouldnt mind being tempted.
i wouldnt mind lending my phone for smses.
i wouldnt mind msging the left with one cent hi-card phone.
i wouldnt mind listening to weird songs.
i wouldnt mind hearing the madness laughter and even joining in.
i wouldnt mind tolerating the dialect song.
and not forgetting the killing-kick,
ALL THESE, i wouldnt mind.

thanks for always putting up with my "nonsense" and hearing my "nonsensical grumble".
i miss saturday and now monday.
how awesome can whisper-talking be!
how great can be sharing mattress be!
how tasty can the beef pasta be!
how much would you enjoy wearing the same shirt !
anyhows, you should know my obvious answer!

LOVE YOU TO BITS AND EVEN CRUMBS, little ass! (:

2006-09-18T10:37:00.000+08:00

somehow, im very very unwilling to do it.
im forced to react in the way i dont want it to be.
was it becos of you?
certainly, it is.
and can we make everything be in the way we actually deserved?
no doubt, we can.
you prove to me time can mean everything.
thats how we lose it in the first place.
what's next?
THIS PARA IS MEANT FOR OLD-CRAPPER.
is this obvious enough?

can anyone believe that i actually spotted the RIGHT QUESTIONS.
however, due to my poor memory, i forgot the answers.
and i actually went to change my supposedly answer, and it turn out to be the correct one.
i deserve to be hang!

as for now,

i shall eat my all time fav food: chicken wine mee suan !!

*wo hui hao hao guo